Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Not sure

oh well just felt like posting something...

oh well happy go lucky as the person i am... just failed my exams preparing to go NS... i hate NAFA and everyone in it... hope they fall and never get back up stupid system and stupid administration... i knew it wasnt going to be easy... haiz
oh well at least go NS can earn some money here and there and probably when i get out ill do some freelance work or something... oh well art is abt talent not abt getting ur papers... good luck if u are paper loser... papers are just to secure u a job or probably if u are out of luck not even a job...
man im just down... no one to talk to... not really enjoying talking also... bored... draw until hand pain... sitting in front of a computer and giving the DOH look to my screen... walks ard the house... do some push ups and exercise... no one to go out with... haiz... not many that i can face my problems with... feel like going NS... haiz
God where are u? faster come can... life of earth is not fun for me... well i guess it isnt suppose to be fun since u left us here for judgement... my hands are shaking faster than ur return... pls make it quick...

Destiny at 6:24 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

YIPEE!!

Hello its been a while since i wrote in or probably its been onli 5 days 0.o
oh well many happy things have happen in the recent days or so that has made me think really positively of the things around me.
Its nice when the smiles from the people ard u are felt and especially from the ones u love ya ^^ who doesnt agree with me on that :p

Oh well im glad that the people i love are smiling and happy. I hope they are truly happy in their heart and soul ^^ A fake front is never going to last if its just for show ya ^^
Well i see happy hearts and not fake fronts tats for sure ^^ very happy

Jerome birthday just past he has finally entered his teenage years and hopes he is getting out of his pampers as well time to be a big boy and make ur right decisions. Well it was fun we had dinner at auntie jill's place lots of laughter, wait... actuallly not much laughter cause everyone was soo focus on phantom of the opera... ok la it was a so so ok nice show la wont give it 2 thumbs up but probably a thumbs up for the singing and thrilling parts of the show ^^

Body aches are quite frequent lately pain here and there not really sure wat it is but its kinda hard to move abt ><>

im glad that my relationship with the people i have are slightly improving some are stagnent and some arent really making any progress or perhapes dropping or so. Suddenly ive become too happy that someone ask me if i was myself 0.o hmmm i guess i am starting to become a little too happy even over sad matters or so ^^ hey but tats me i learn to change a little here and there good to be happy mah rather than be sad ^^ quite fun people cant tell if u are sad or anything muahaha!!!
My sadness is kept for onli myself and for someone special who i can share with ^^
But obviously not to keep telling tat someone special sad stuff ive decided to keep the talk of sadness short and simple not into full detail ^^ if not sure something wrong might happen if the whole story was told :p

My mind has been obviously gone funny or weird, is it because of wats going on in my family? is it the future isnt sure for me? Im dying to enter the NS or should we say army or some kinda training to discipline my mind or so. hmmm weird very weird i myself also dun noe but it seems for now i dun really have much of a aim or so ^^ the future is sooo unsure ><>

But i pray for the people that are ard me and also for the ones i love hoping that the changes will be something positive and something they wont regret or feel sad abt. Only God and prayers can help those and of course me... im changing as well seems pretty positive happy for me i guess :p but ill be back to my normal self as always. Never worrying and always finding a solution for something ^^ meanwhile hope to go out tis coming week to remove my braces YAY!!!! im finally taking it off... im pretty scared to see my dentist as his clerk will probably scold me like mad ><>
She everytime scold me one i very scared :(
oh well hope i can go out with my fren to have lunch or something ^^
sometimes in life wasting a little tiny bit of ur time wont really hurt
sometimes resting and relaxing and probably not doing anything can really help in the happy thinkings of mind, not neccessarily resting and not doing anything will make u think evil things.
It simply depends on the individual and how he/she thinks
Going out with frens, relaxing, music, movies and doing nothing may help you realise of the things ard u and probably give u a much relax load of the time that u feel stress or perhapes even bring up certain characteristics of u ^^

ok signing off i type too much liao ^^ *yawn*

Destiny at 5:16 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007

Coward!

Look and see, is it the people who can't see the changes or are they just scared to see the changes that has happen to them?
Why dun pick up a pinch of that courage that u had to change into looking at what ur change has become? open ur eyes, see the truth, feel the pain and happiness, u like it?
This is what you are now.

Did you try to change or even notice that effort u tried?
Are you triple sure that you saw ur change and is trying to change for the better good?
Were u better now than before?
Do u think u were much better in the mind than u were now?
Do u think ur changes has caused much hurt?
Or are u still living in that changed world as its faces positivly for u?
Selfish? No, take a look around is this really you?
Changing for the world or for you own belief?
Are you sure of the change you are and the purpose?

Taken from the Mason text label code "The Code of Man"

Destiny at 2:06 PM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Die Headaches

Die the headaches are so bad i went to 3 doctors...
Fever is up and down and its pretty much killing my brain cells...
Didn't do much but sleep hoping i would get better after each sleep

It isnt good to be sick especially those ppl ard u tat u were with got sick
Too bad i passed it on guess im the main carrier...
For those who noe me pls stay clear of me if not u are going to get really sick...

Since someone bought some new earphones i had some new earphones myself ^^
Well they arent those tat stick into ur ear and have direct impact on to ur ear drums to make
u deaf faster if the volume gets loud ^^
They are those tat cling to the ear has a hook and sound can be released out doesnt bounce straight into the ear ^^ a little hard to hear at times but it does work :)
I think those stick into ur ear types are for ppl who are trying to block off all sound for perfect sound quality for their music but well quality comes for a price :P just dun on it too loud or so since its more into ur ear u should make it much softer than it is since it does shut off sound around u ^^

Well sick sick sick hope i get much better and everyone ard me too peace out ^^

Destiny at 8:02 PM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Memory

*blanks blanks blanks*
Yes its back... Hi my Buddy... Its been awhile...
Its like there is no signs or memory of sadness...
Thanks for coming back... but dun stay too long...
I'll have coffee and tea with you...
We can remember the happy things...
I hope your brother isn't coming... Cause...
He might wipe them all away...
I know you have come back for a reason...
Was it because i was sick? or...
Was it because i was sad?
Lets play a game or have a gamble...
And since you are back guess you will be staying for awhile
Look and see
Watch and notice
It just takes time my buddy relax and have a cup of tea
Wheather good or bad
We will discuss it in my dreams
It seems it has come to the end of the road...
Things and changes aren't turning out so well...
Lives are changing better or worse?
What do u think... Simon?

Destiny at 9:38 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Changes

Why are things this way?
Are there solutions to it?
Am i trusted or denied?
Is it mutual or is it a wind that is just passing by?

Hurt by the defense
Lost in the Soul
Who can i trust or... Who can trust me
Is it the bonds that were formed?
Easily to be changed or... Overprotected by the years of friendship
Is it hurt that is consumming me?

As Angels cry
I cry with them
For the Lord is the only one... I can depend...

Dear Lord
The changes are fast
They zoom by in the instance ... and...
Disappears...
Is it time thats holding us?
Where is this key?
Please Save Us!!

Destiny at 7:29 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

I Hear Your Name

Found the most beautiful music took me a while to find it... Finally!!!! Oh lord thanks for letting me get it *cheers*

Oh well today was nothing much other than doing a little work and playing a game or so.. Life isnt very exciting not much suspense now... Last time soo much suspense haha joking... it wasnt such a good suspense anyway last time... Now at least more peaceful but at times a little boring bah...

Im not sure but the issue of smiling seems keep popping up in my head... a little weird but ya it does enter into my thought of my blog tag.. A fake Smile , A real Smile , A happy yet sad Smile ??? hmmm does mean much but i guess these 3 bring something to thought... I was looking at someone but i guess the Smile tat person gives keep changing since we met but i understand it was pretty interesting how changes in a smile can do soo much... Well dun say me i smile when i like it and sometimes i dun really like to smile or so im always deep in thought tats why i seldom smile... haha tat answers all those tat ask me why i dun smile... *cause im in deep thought oops floating away* yaaa artist tend to float away in their thoughts ^^

There is tis person i noe sometimes tis person smiles but yet it does show tat obviously its fake its just to make u happy... but got to admit tat person has guts and i admire cause its like even how not funny the thing is also smile haha *cheers*
Well wat is a real smile? is it from the heart? how do u or i see it? hmmm im not sure but im searching for an answer ^^ if u do noe anyone who noes a answer or a suggestion pls add me on msn Simonz_sda@hotmail.com

A Happy yet sad smile tis is a very common thing with the person i know. Are things turning bad? if its a happy yet sad smile? is it turning ok? good? bad? waterfall? Smiles are confusing for me sometimes i can see if a person is sad or troubled but it seems im losing tis ability since dun noe when. Am i blinded is God taking tis ability from me as i used it for the wrong reasons. Smiles werent a question for me till i just notice i lost an ability to understand ppl... God forgive me im sorry if i had use the ability for a wrong purpose... Things have changed i guess nothing comes for free even if a trade has to be in place for something in return for wat u desire or wan to extend...

Dedicating a Song to someone who i noe... has a few meanings here and there

Things are moving on many things are changing. We make life compromise to us not we compromise to life. We change for the people we love and to see the changes come to a direction we never noe. Only praying and hoping and a thought could we see wat we truly want in life. Are we Happy as it is? is it a reality or a dream? Is the feeling real or is it a passing by? *dun worry not talking abt us*

Well smiles do show a lot probably i cant demand a smile from someone as i dun smile towards tat person seems fair... like we say an eye for an eye i think tis is very true... A smile in return for a smile... dun put religion in it cause religion doesnt study abt tis topic and i realised it in my own church itself... tat im glad God didnt take tat ability from me... it does troubles me... ppl say but they dun do it... when a person doesnt smile do u shake his hand and not return him a smile? when tat person doesnt smile do u pretty he or she doesnt exist, walking by him or her as if he or she is invisible? Think im joking? open ur eyes and notice ^^

Well signing off going off to church :) its sabbath im so happy ^^

Destiny at 10:43 PM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

To Lala

Ignore the title hehe... lame but it does sound kinda nice ^^

Well today is boring gallery day time... later going out liao since im free ill just do a write in and a quick summary of wat i did before...

Go out for a short while have a nice lunch with someone and found tat someone looks really pretty in uniform... im not pointing at skirts or so but ya tat person does look pretty in watever she is in... (wat thought i will say he right...) im not gay man... Had fish & co yet again hope it didnt bore the person out with the food...

Had a tiny talk abt going to movies tis and tat didnt turn out so well i guess too much into the talk of contradicting... well everything went well, enjoyed my time... oh well off to see my picture in pan pacific... so boring... oh well gonna be lonely since most of the ppl there will be moving abt ^^ my frens are going clubing so tis makes it more lonely... didnt really invite anyone or so u noe la how can hold on thursday nite... mad leh of course ppl busy leh... well i told tat to my lecturer he told me to ask pan pacific haha!! well i was left in *silence*

Oh well today was quite a fun day even though it was short ^^ thanks to the person who went out with me today to have lunch!! YUMMY!

Destiny at 4:55 PM